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yikes. - 9/27/2008 12:44:02 AM
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beachcooky
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Don't you love how I always have prayer requests? Ha, I am terribly sorry about that!
Well--I am in a battle. Big time. Satan is trying his hardest...and I mean his hardest...to destroy me through this time. I've been seeking God lately and I've been pressing into Him. And then here comes Satan, destroying me. I'm not saying Satan is stronger than God, because I know that's not true. But I feel that most of the time, Satan wins and I hate that. I don't know if I'm letting him or what. And I question if God's really helping me. But I think this is Satan putting these kind of thoughts in my head, but it happens all the times. It feels like he wins most of the fights and I hate that. I pray and I pray and I rebuke him as much as possible, but he comes back even stronger.
I know that Satan would do anything to destroy you. I know that when you fall, he's going to take that opportunity to destroy you. And he's doing this...and I am literally getting tired. I am getting tired of fighting. I am getting tired of relying on God to do something, when it seems like He never does. It feels like He's not there helping me win this battle. It really feels like I'm on my own.
And whenever I ask for forgiveness, I feel God's not forgiving me. I feel horrible when I have these feelings. I know I shouldn't be having them, but I do and it sucks. But I keep asking for forgiveness and I really don't feel that He's forgiving me. I don't feel peace. I want His forgiveness. But it feels like, ugh.
I'm sorry if I sound like a horrible person right now, but I have so many feelings bottled up right now that I can't really think straight. I want to feel God. I want to feel God more than I feel Satan. I want to feel that God is helping me fight this battle.
I've been feeling depressed lately and I know that Satan's taking this opportunity to get me. I hate him. I really do. I don't know why he keeps doing these things. I know he hates me...but I hate him as well. So it doesn't really matter, haha. But he needs to stop. I know he will never stop, but I want to feel God. I want to feel God when I rebuke Satan. I never do and it drives me insane.
This prayer request might not have made much sense. But this is the best that I can think of :/
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RE: yikes. - 9/27/2008 12:04:37 PM
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That is a big battle. You are using the word feel and feelings a lot in talking about spiritual warfare. You admit your feelings bottle is about to explode, there's so much pressure in there.
When you feel happy, then God is winning, and when you are tempted to do the wrong things, or feel depressed, then Satan is winning? What happens when you just feel numb? Indecisive? Is there a stand-off then?
I'm not Mr. Religion, but I would offer that your faith is so much more than how you feel. If Christ is Lord of your life, you don't feel that so much as you KNOW that to be true. And by knowing it, there is no doubt that God loves even you (and even me), and has set us both apart from the ways of the world to accomplish His will and live a new life in Him. Not as a robot (free will allows us to live right or wrong), and not to ever be tempted or feel lousy, depressed, stuck in the past. But He also helps us see the way out of such traps of liar. Stepping outside of feeling and living life on faith and what you know to be true no matter what kind of day you are having is not going to be easy, but God is not saving you only when you feel like He is. As a new creation in Him, He has won you entirely. There's no need to be running from liar anymore. You can rebuke him, yet even better, don't give him the time of day.
I'm keeping you in prayer, that you not toss your feelings, but keep growing stronger in knowing God loves you and that He's already defeated liar in the game of new, saved, redeemed lives.
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RE: yikes. - 9/27/2008 8:58:51 PM
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Keabird
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Diane, that was a good post.
Father God, please help Beachcooky as she learns to stand on Your Word rather than how she feels. Lord we know our feelings lie, and they change and toss like the wind - they can't be trusted.
But Your Word can be trusted. Father please help BC to remember Your Word and stand on it no matter what feeling may be running with her at the time. Please bring her through this phase of her life and help her learn how to stand strong. We ask in Jesus Name
amen
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RE: yikes. - 9/27/2008 11:26:12 PM
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Hi beachcooky,
I know you have heard this before but I know exactly what you are going through. I have been going throught the same thing for a while and it is a hard fight but it is one that God has won for us. I have had the same feelings too and like was said in an earlier post those are feelings that are put there by the enemy. God knows your heart. Just keep fighting and don't give up. I'll be praying for you.
Jimmy
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RE: yikes. - 9/27/2008 11:42:28 PM
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beachcooky
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ORIGINAL: Keabird
Diane, that was a good post.
Father God, please help Beachcooky as she learns to stand on Your Word rather than how she feels. Lord we know our feelings lie, and they change and toss like the wind - they can't be trusted.
But Your Word can be trusted. Father please help BC to remember Your Word and stand on it no matter what feeling may be running with her at the time. Please bring her through this phase of her life and help her learn how to stand strong. We ask in Jesus Name
amen
This may seem like a silly question. But I hear it a lot of the times. How do I know that I am relying on my feelings? Like, I might be. I honestly don't know. I know what the Bible says is true...but sometimes I feel like I'm not getting forgiven, etc etc. So I'm guessing that's how I rely on my feelings? I don't know, hahah. I'm so dumb, for real. But it's okay, lol.
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RE: yikes. - 9/28/2008 1:09:29 AM
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OneJohn410
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I don't know all about feelings lying to us and that they can't be trusted. That really doesn't set well with me.
Feeling forgiven, yeah, I hear you on that. I could ask your forgiveness for something, and you say, hey, don't mention it, we both blew up, and I'd feel better. Praying for it isn't wrong at all. What is most awesome to me is that the forgiving for what is eating away at my very soul right then- well, God's Son Jesus died around 2,008 years ago on a cross for that sin, that nagging feeling, and what would trouble our friendship two months from now, or 20 years from now should it go that long. It's a done deal. All you have to do is listen for the reminder of that, say thanks, and keep on striving to live a Christ-like life.
That's what I was trying to say about knowing forgiveness. Knowing that, we don't just go with the flow, and sin when its the thing to do, and be churchy when it's the thing to do. Be encouraged to live a life of thankfulness and not whoops! Have I felt forgiveness for that one yet? Don't drown in the feeling sorry, unworthy, unforgiven, stupid, clueless, hopeless, helpless, fearful, and any other sorry feeling you want to put in there, alrighty?
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RE: yikes. - 9/29/2008 10:42:58 AM
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peaceofGod
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ORIGINAL: beachcooky
I'm sorry if I sound like a horrible person right now, but I have so many feelings bottled up right now that I can't really think straight. I want to feel God. I want to feel God more than I feel Satan. I want to feel that God is helping me fight this battle.
This prayer request might not have made much sense. But this is the best that I can think of :/
Well...you don't really sound like a horrible person...more like a person who is tired, weary and discouraged. Quite a few of us—if not all of us—have gone through the "dark night of soul". Not fun at all, but sometimes makes us stronger once we come out the other end.
Father,
Thank you for being the greatest.
Please help beachcooky Help her to come through this hard time in a way that will make her stronger than ever before and better equipped to help others who go through the same thing without giving up.
Thank you that she is hanging in there with you even though she is suffering. Thank you that she has the grit to keep on keeping on.
Father, we can see that beachcooky is a special person. Please bless her greatly and make the end of this challenging period of time to be better than the beginning. Thank you. We pray for her in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
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RE: yikes. - 9/29/2008 10:52:23 AM
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ORIGINAL: beachcooky...Don't you love how I always have prayer requests?
Thank You GOD for beachcooky always turns to You O LORD! AMEN. Sister beachcooky you are still in my prayers 
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RE: yikes. - 9/29/2008 12:49:01 PM
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sparkleingsnow
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Original: beachcooky
Satan is trying his hardest...and I mean his hardest...to destroy me through this time.
It seems to me that it is when we are growing, or when we are doing something for the Lord that satan attacks the most. You've been growing, beachcookie. :) You said it yourself "I've been seeking God lately..." santan may win a scrimmage, but he can't win the war. It's already won!
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And I question if God's really helping me.
Psalms 46: God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.Are you letting Him help you as much as He wants to? Read Ephesians 6 about putting on the armor of God. Note that the weapons we have are the word of God and prayer. Jesus used scripture to answer satan when He was tempted. (Little_1 already pointed that out, I think.) And the shield is faith, and that is what we use to protect us from his fiery darts. If he can attack our faith and knock our shield down, we're open to all kinds of attacks. As Little_1 said, stay in His word, evry day, and let it speak to your heart.
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But I think this is Satan putting these kind of thoughts in my head,
God's word says he is the father of all lies.
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It really feels like I'm on my own.
Hebrews 13: 5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
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And whenever I ask for forgiveness, I feel God's not forgiving me.
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
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I'm sorry if I sound like a horrible person right now, but I have so many feelings bottled up right now that I can't really think straight. I want to feel God. I want to feel God more than I feel Satan. I want to feel that God is helping me fight this battle.
Your not a horrible person. That said, there is only one who is perfect. The Lord Jesus Christ.
You know when I feel the Lord's presence the most? When I'm praising Him. In song or even just in my heart.
God bless you beachcookie. I'm praying for you.
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RE: yikes. - 9/29/2008 2:40:19 PM
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beachcooky
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ORIGINAL: sparkleingsnow
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Original: beachcooky
Satan is trying his hardest...and I mean his hardest...to destroy me through this time.
It seems to me that it is when we are growing, or when we are doing something for the Lord that satan attacks the most. You've been growing, beachcookie. :) You said it yourself "I've been seeking God lately..." santan may win a scrimmage, but he can't win the war. It's already won!
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And I question if God's really helping me.
Psalms 46: God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.Are you letting Him help you as much as He wants to? Read Ephesians 6 about putting on the armor of God. Note that the weapons we have are the word of God and prayer. Jesus used scripture to answer satan when He was tempted. (Little_1 already pointed that out, I think.) And the shield is faith, and that is what we use to protect us from his fiery darts. If he can attack our faith and knock our shield down, we're open to all kinds of attacks. As Little_1 said, stay in His word, evry day, and let it speak to your heart.
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But I think this is Satan putting these kind of thoughts in my head,
God's word says he is the father of all lies.
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It really feels like I'm on my own.
Hebrews 13: 5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
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And whenever I ask for forgiveness, I feel God's not forgiving me.
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
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I'm sorry if I sound like a horrible person right now, but I have so many feelings bottled up right now that I can't really think straight. I want to feel God. I want to feel God more than I feel Satan. I want to feel that God is helping me fight this battle.
Your not a horrible person. That said, there is only one who is perfect. The Lord Jesus Christ.
You know when I feel the Lord's presence the most? When I'm praising Him. In song or even just in my heart.
God bless you beachcookie. I'm praying for you.
Thanks a lot! I will also write these scriptures down!
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RE: yikes. - 9/30/2008 11:53:46 AM
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Lord God, please be with your servant, Beachcooky, at this time. Please protect her from the snares of the devil. Send forth your armies of angels to drive away all minions of the enemy that might try to influence or harm her. Place your hedge of protection around her so that she might not suffer from their torments so much, and help her to emerse herself in your Word.
Reminder her, God, that she is one of your blessed children and that you are with her at all times. In times like this, remind her that you are the rock that all can cling to in the storms of their life. Let this trial draw her nearer to you, and make her faith in you stronger than it was before. Show her your love and comfort, and guide her in your ways so that she might be able to live out whatever your will holds for her.
I pray for all of this in the name of the Risen Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, who shed his blood for the sins of all mankind upon the cross.
Amen
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