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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 5/25/2005 7:43:49 AM
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Last weekend I went to Pennsylvania, to visit Ed and to take my pre-employment physical. I got to meet the woman who will be my boss. She seems very nice, and I love the way the floor is laid out! I am looking forward to working there.
It is always good to be with Ed, but last weekend he was working the night shift. Since it was his first weekend back after being in the hospital, he was very tired and needed to sleep most of the time. So, we really didn't get to spend much time together. Most of Sunday was spent at church. There was a celebration for the church having ended their study of "the Purpose-Driven Life". I got to sing a solo, and I met several people at the lunch they had; who seem like they will be good friends when I move out there.
After the church activities Kyi and I went to the zoo. That was really fun... he loves snakes, and bats and lots of other things that appeal to little boys. Then we went to a playground and had some pizza. It was a great day
I miss Ed already, but know I will see him again for the last weekend in June, and then two weeks after that, I will be moving out there!!! Woohoo!
We still aren't sure if Ed's son Ben will be moving out on his own, or wanting to stay with us. So, we don't know if we need to look for a bigger place, or if I will move into the place where Ed lives now.
A few years ago, not knowing something as important as where I will live would have driven me crazy. Now, I can honestly say I am letting God handle it. He knows where we will live, and I will know when I need to know... I will have enough time to handle the details.
For now, I am sitting back and watching it all unfold
I will write again later. Kyi was at the principals' office yesterday, and Christina has been home sick (AGAIN!) for the last three days. Sigh.... being a parent isn't all it's cracked up to be
God bless you all
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 5/27/2005 7:18:51 AM
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Christina was sick all week, so I made an appointment for her yesterday; to go to the doctor. He increased one of her medications. I think he made the right choice, and I am praying she sticks out the rest of the school year without any more absences. I am SO frustrated by the amount of time she has been out of school! I honestly can't imagine that she is as sick as she says, especially when I see her up each evening on the computer; talking to "French Fry" and laughing. And, there is a part of me that thinks she really doesn't deserve to graduate.... the part that loves school and almost never takes a sick day (I haven't taken a sick day for myself in over 5 years!)
I can't believe next Wednesday in June 1! AND that, as Christina says, she will be moving out of this place - and, as she puts it, never living with me again in less than a month! It feels so strange to think that is true, but it was inevitable as she will begin her camp job on June 19, and then after camp it will be time for her to start college. I am not as upset as I thought I would be, as the plans now are that she will be living close to us. Plus, if she wants me to keep paying those tuition bills she will not be able to do anything that is TOO unwise. I know that young adults often make unwise choices, and I am sure she will make her share of them. But it is time for me to let her go, (as much as possible when she will be living so close) and to become an adult.
Yikes, that is scary. But God can handle it. This poor Mom cannot.
I have had a return of that awful rash that was driving me nuts  last summer, and had to go back to the allergy doc who gave me some meds (thank God!) and has to give me two shots this AM.  If this is anything like last year, I will be feeling betterwithin a week.
This weekend Kyi is going to visit his grandpas and I will have the house (mostly) to myself. I intend to CLEAN like crazy and to pack as much winter stuff, and stuff I don't currently use, away for the move. It is coming closer and I don't want to have to do everything in July. It will make me happy when it is done, because it will get me a few tasks closer to being with Ed. 
I am so proud of him for the way he wants to work. Another man with similar disabilities and challenges might choose the easy road of lying back and collecting disability. And he would be qualified. But he is one of those men who sees work as part of what it means to be a man, so he pushes himself and he works as much as he is able to. It is one of the many things I love about him.
Kyi did have an in-school suspension for his little altercation last week, but he seems very sorry and we are going to work on his temper (again) with the counselor. I really don't get why words can change him from a sunny child to a raging bully, but this is what is happening and we have to ask God's help to change him and help him figure out better ways to deal with it.
God bless you all
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 5/28/2005 7:11:32 AM
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I am looking foward to this weekend, though if I follow my plans, I will be spending most of my time cleaning. That is something that I normally don't like to do, but I am actually looking forward to packing away alot of our winter stuff and sorting through Kyi's toy box for stuff he actually uses, and throwing away any broken toys and/or trash. Also will take anything he hasn't used in six months and take it to GoodWill. I do that every few months and am always surprised at how much stuff I get out of there, and, also surprised that he seldom misses the stuff!
Kyi is at his grandpas' house for the long weekend. Yesterday, after working late, I was too tired to cook and decided to take myself and Christina to dinner. I am glad I did because we got to talk about some of the things that have been bothering her. She did open up about some of them. The doctor told her yesterday that there seems to be no PHYSICAL reason for her stomach upset, so he increased her depression meds. I really hope she can make it through the rest of the school year without taking off any more days, and I also hope that the school will allow her to graduate, though I honestly don't know how they can. It is up to God, and, in smaller part, to the school.
I think part of her problem stems from her relationship with Alexi ("French Fry") . She is torn because it seems she is getting serious about him, but is hesitant because he is not a believer. She also is having "adult" feelings for him which are a problem because a) she is committed to remain sexually abstinent until she is married (YAY!) and b) it brings up old feelings about abusive things which unfortunately happened to her, when she was 11 years old.
I am glad she was able to be honest with me, and also that she has lately been spending alot of her time talking to him about Jesus. I have to give it to God, and be glad she was able to be honest with me.
Work is OK, but I admit that I don't feel the committment to it that I used to. I know that I have less than 6 weeks left, (YAY again!) and I will do my best, but my heart is elsewhere. I am SO much looking forward to my new job, although I wish it didn't have to be night shift. We will be meeting our new Director of Nursing on Tuesday. I hope she will be a good "fit" for the place, even though I will not be there very long. They are planning a "secret" retirement dinner for the current Director. (She is about 75 years old and has worked there over 30 years. I am DEFINITELY going to go; to honor her committment)
All in all, I can honestly say God is blessing me. Ed will be driving here on June 11, because we are going to go to a friend's wedding on the 12th. I am really looking forward to that. She is a dear Christian sister. Together they will have a blended family of about 10 kids! (Glad that's not me! Five is enough!!!)
God bless you all
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 5/29/2005 9:12:46 AM
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Just a short note. I am "enjoying" a three-day weekend, but spent a lot of time yesterday cleaning my room. I share a room with Kyi and he has a LOT of toys, and isn't very good about finding a garbage can when he needs one. I did get the bathroom clean and its floor washed, and I got the current laundry put away, plus one toy box cleaned out. All that told me is that it is gonna be a BIG job to move all of our stuff to Pennsylvania!
Ed and I talked for awhile about how and when we are gonna move the stuff, and I think that we have our schedule straight. Looks like he will come down, on the weekend of July 8 and help me pack up my clothes and essentials, and take them back to Pennsylvania in his van. I will stay until the 11th or 12th and clean and get the furniture as ready as I can, then go out to Pennsylvania and get stuff like my Pa driver's license and registration.
It will be wonderful but strange, to live with Ed. Just planning grocery shopping for both of us always takes a big discussion when I visit... so I can only imagine what it will be like to plan a week's groceries. And, I have NEVER had anyone else do my checkbook, so having him do our joint checkbook, once I move out there, will be a real challenge to me. It will also be interesting to have discussions where we plan our weekly budget and how to pay our bills.
Christina is going to be working at a church camp, and will be able to stay there all summer. She is going to pack up her own stuff soon, and she will have most of her summer clothes with her. So we can bring everything to either wherever she will be living (IF we find a place by July 22) or to store in one of her stepsisters' basements. She starts college in the end of August. (This is assuming that she graduates high school. We just received the expected notice that we have to attend an appeal about her attendance)
Kyi will be going to his dad's parents' home, in Ohio for the first half of July. He will go to one week of church camp, then spend two weeks with us (we are looking for a child care facility in our new town, because I will be at orientation for my new job, and Ed will have to sleep). For most of August, he will be in Cape Cod with his grandfathers.
Wow! What a busy summer, and it is almost here! The best part will be to be with Ed.
I want to give my thanks again to all who read this, and anyone who has a good thought for me and all who pray for us. Please post any comments in my Community thread, MrsEd&friends. Thank you and God bless you all
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 5/30/2005 7:43:00 PM
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I spent today finishing the cleaning in our room. I filled the back seat of the car with several bags of garbage and broken toys or toys with missing parts. I feel great about the way it looks! Next weekend, I have to fix the tail light on my car, so it will pass inspection. Tomorrow I have to call the child care center in my new town, to ask about the two weeks that Kyi will be home while we both work. I also have to find out how to get a copy of my birth certificate, so I can get a new driver's licence, so I can have one in Pennsylvania.
This afternoon Christina and I had an argument about money, and about how her dad is giving her spending money and buying her presents, and how I think this is wrong. She chose to leave her job, which was a foolish but permissable decision. But for him to buy her things, and pay her phone bills while she does nothing to pay the bills that this decision resulted in is NOT going to help her become an adult. She says I am horrible, and that it is none of my business. The second one is kind of true; he can give her whatever he chooses, but it IS my business because I see her having NO sense of the consequences of her decision. I just fear that she will always run away as soon as things get too difficult for her, and that he will always bail her out. She will NEVER grow up that way.
Tomorrow I also have to write a note to Christina's principal asking for an appeal about her attendance. We knew this was coming, and I have to say again I have mixed feelings about how this should come out. On the one hand, she DOES make up her work. On the other hand, many of her absences have been brought about by her own choice to stay up all night online, instead of sleeping, and then feeling "sick" in the mornings.
One example of her lack of maturity is that I told her I saw an ad, in our new town, for an efficiency apartment that we would have wanted to look into, but did not check out thoroughly because we knew we didn't have the funds to pay for it until August, when she will be moving to Pennsylvania, and the man with the ad probably wants to rent it now. After all, she will not be living there until August, and, with our finances as tight as they are (which is due in no small part to the way she ran up the phone bill!) we can't afford to sign her up until August. But she talked Dear Old Daddy into paying the rent so that she can take the apartment now. This seems so wrong to me. Life just ISN'T always going to be that convenient, for her, and I think she needs to prove that she can EARN the right to live on her own (i.e. by earning some of the money that she owes and will continue to owe) before she gets this place. After all, there will be other places. But Ed did take down the number, and will call the man tomorrow and see if it is still available. But I don't really know whether to hope it is available or not.
It is hard to see her do these things, and wonder just how far to go to protect her; and when it is time to cut her loose. She is not yet 18, but she says she has the right to make her own decisions. Yet, every time the decision doesn't go her way, she falls back on dear old Daddy.
I can only give her to God and hope for wisdom and direction
Thanks to all of you who read this. It is so good to know that someone reads this, and that maybe you are sending me good thoughts or prayers.
God bless you all!
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/1/2005 7:45:04 AM
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Ed got in touch with the man who is renting the apartment, (the efficiency apt for Christina) and will see it tomorow. Last night we had a really long discussion about whether or not we should allow her to obligate us, so soon, for an apartment when we really don't know for SURE if she will even graduate. If she doesn't graduate, she will still need a place to live, but she will HAVE to get a job ASAP so that she can pay for the apartment, if she is not in college.
It was a long and really intense discussion. We both agree that Christina's dad is indulging her WAY too much, but that we also can't do much about that. I think it is her, who will pay for this in the end, by not being able to be accountable for the results of her own choices; soon enough.
If this apartment is acceptable, we will have to have some sort of agreement with her that she will either have to be in college with a part time job, or work. She can't freeload, as I fear she may do if she doesn't graduate.
One interesting thing about the discussion is that I noticed that, when Ed was giving me his opinion, he would say things like "I am not going to pay for her to do nothing" or "I am not gonna sign this lease if...." and I had to point out to him that it really ISN'T just him involved in making this decision. (We are a team, now... he doesn't have to make family decisions on his own) We are BOTH so used to making our own decisions, and not having to answer to anyone else for those decisions - although we are both very responsible people who have taken others into account when we made them.
The even more interesting thing is that, even though I pointed out to him about using the word "I" about decisions; rather than "we", when I wrote him an email this morning, I realized that I was writing "I will not be willing to support her if..." just like he did, last night
So, God has to do a work in BOTH of us; to teach us what it means, to BE "us". Living together will be the beginning of us, learning how to do that.
So much of our conversation lately has been about our upcoming move. It is so wonderful, but God still has a lot to do within both of us.
God bless you all!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/2/2005 8:30:59 PM
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Ed went to see the apartment this morning, and I now feel alot better about the possibility of her renting it. It is a one bedroom apartment. It would be on the third floor of a building where there is a laundromat, and it is on the same street as where Ed and I will be living. The rent is $50 more than what we had wanted, but it includes utilities, so it would actually be reasonable. It sounds really cute! The man is willing to wait til July to start the lease, so Christina and I are going to drive up on Sunday morning to see it, and we can then go to church with Ed, Ben and Kyi, and have lunch with Ed. An unexpected visit!
I talked to Christina and told her what we had decided; that she has to work for part of her expenses. That we will not support a "free ride". That if she drops out or fails from school, and wants to continue living on her own, she will have to get a full time job.
This sounds like a really good deal for us, and for Christina. It is close enough for her to visit, and to get to school on time, and far enough away for her to feel independent and "adult" .... which she WILL be, in September.
BUT! The best news was yet to come! God has answered YET ANOTHER prayer with this one! We haven't been able to know, for sure, where WE were going to live. This is because we didn't know for sure if Ed's son, Ben was going to be able to find his own place. He really wanted to live on his own, yet wasn't sure if he could do it. (Ben is mentally retarded, and has not yet lived on his own, though he is 30 and employed fulltime as a cabinetmaker apprentice) He has been praying about it, and today the landlord of the place where Ed lives told Ben that he will convert a garage, on the same propery where Ed lives, and make it into an apartment for Ben! It will be just the right rent for Ben. He will be on his own, yet right next door to us! He can even help us, with Kyi! It will be awesome... and exactly the right solution for the situation. God is SO amazing!!!
Of course, the best part of this is that we now know what our address will be. This is a relief... I can begin to fill out Kyi's school forms. And, I feel like the details of our move are finally forming in a clearer fashion. We even talked about who will get what, in the move: "OK. Ben can take the smaller couch, and we will put the big couch in the living room. Christina can take our big couch, plus the desk in the living room, and her own dresser, bed and shelf. And we can split our kitchen stuff, so each of our "adult kids" can have stuff for their own kitchens.
As excited as I was before, I am even MORE excited, now! I am so grateful to God for all the things He has done, regarding this move... and all the things He has done for us. I am now looking forward to going to Pennsylvania; to see "Christina's apartment."
God is so good... it's always so awesome to see the way He pulls all the details together.
God bless you all
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/5/2005 6:39:55 PM
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We got up this morning, and drove to Pennsylvania to see Christina's little apartment. And "little" is, indeed the word for it. It is on the third floor of the building where the laundromat is. It is in a nice, commercial neighborhood and it is about a mile from the college, and the same distance from our apartment. It has a very slanted roof (because of it being in an attic) and a small door, but Christina is short like me. She was a little freaked out by the slanting roof and the three flights of stairs, but she has been thinking of ways to decorate it by herself, and make it her own unique place. SO...... I think we are going to take it! Ed and I filled out the application, because we are the ones who will have to pay the rent for it and be responsible, as she still doesn't have a job out there.
Since we were at a laundromat, we spent the two hours between church and meeting with the landlord; doing our laundry. I took Christina for a ride during the dry cycle, to show her where the fast food places, and the supermarket, library and drug store are. After laundry, we met Ed and Ben and went to church. It was so nice to see him, and as always it was a blessing to go to church. (It is really hard for him to go to church on the weekends when he works nights, but he knows it is important to attend, and he did want to be with us.) There was a flyer in the church lobby, asking for people to fill some service positions at the church. A few of them were "right up my alley", like Youth Sunday school teacher, and Women's Ministries Coordinator, so I filled out the form and put it in the box... and will wait on God to see which, if any I get. I want to be used of God in my new church, and it will be nice if I have a job all picked out for me when I get there.
After church, we went to lunch together at the college dining hall where Ed could put it on his employee discount. Becky works at the dining hall, so we got to see her too. We relaxed, ate together and then drove back to Ed's house, picked up our car and headed back to NJ! It was a blessing to see him, but of course I wish it had been for longer.
Yesterday, Christina decided to come with me and Kyi for our Saturday afternoon outing (we went to see "Madagascar", which we really enjoyed). She has been staying to herself lately, and I wondered why she was willing to come. She said she realized that she is moving out to be on her own, in just two weeks, and that she realizes our "bonding times" will soon be over, and that future bonding will change. I just cried... I guess it came so quickly that I hadn't really grasped it... she is becoming an adult... (hopefully) graduating from high school, and going to college, living in her own apartment.... I'm just not ready for my "little baby" to truly be grown up. SO, I am glad she came with us, and that we had the ride to and from Pennsylvania, today, to talk some more.
I have mixed feelings, about whether she will (or SHOULD) graduate from high school. On the one hand, I have seen her make up all of her missed work. And I have seen ALL the mornings that she couldn't go; with her miserably sick to her stomach. And I know she is smart enough... that she knows the contents of her courses... so, from that standpoint she deserves to graduate. But, there have been many mornings where my cynical has thought, "isn't it convenient that she is sick TODAY... when there is school, when just last night she was up laughing and talking, or out with her friends?"
It is hard to say how much of her "illness" this year has been emotional, and I think she has used it to her own advantage to avoid school, so there is a part of me that thinks they would be justified in denying her the right to graduate.
I am GLAD it is not me who will make the decision. We are going on Thursday to see the principal, who will decide. Whatever will be is in God's hands.
Please say a prayer that God's Will is done, and that BOTH of us (and her dad) will accept it; no matter what the outcome is.
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/6/2005 8:55:59 PM
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Christina was "sick" again, this morning and my heart is just so sore with grief for her. If only I could understand why she gets this way. Do I think she is truly, physically ill? No. Do I think that something within her; which even she may not understand, is making her ill? Yes. The upshot is that I really don't know if she should graduate from high school. I think it's possible that she really isn't ready to be an adult, or to face something within the adult world. Maybe she never stopped grieving for her sister, or never got over some terrible things that happened to her, when she was younger.
For whatever reason, I don't know if she is able to face the adult responsibilities of being a college student.
I guess we will know, on Thursday; whether she will graduate or not. And then we will plan according to that.
I have such a sinking feeling that she is in some kind of trouble; that only God can help with. (I don't think she is doing drugs, or deathly ill, or a criminal, but I do think she has some kind of serious internal conflict) I think she may be sexually active with her boyfriend, or possibly drinking. I just don't know for sure.
So I pray, and try to give her to God's care, where I know she has her best chance of success. He loves her far more than I ever can, and I have to trust Him to care for her, and to give me the wisdom about how to either help her, or to stand back and let her help herself.
Please pray with me that she will be safe, and that I will know what to do and say, and that His will be done.
Thank you and God bless you all
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/8/2005 8:24:24 PM
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Today, my new boss told me that they have hired someone to take my job, when I resign. I know the person (she is a nurse who has visited our facility, as her company has a contract with us) and I am glad that they have hired her. She seems smart and caring, and I am relieved that I will be leaving "my people" in good hands.
In a way, it seems weird that someone else will do my job. My boss asked me to write out a list of things that I do, each day. I did this today and surprised myself by how many things I do on a daily/weekly/monthly and ongoing basis. It made me feel proud of all the things that I have done. And also made me realize how much this job has taught me. And how it helped me to get ready for my new job at the hospital.
The only thing that really bothers me is that they only want me to take three days to train her. If she already worked here, that would be more than enough. But, in my opinion, if she is going to supervise the nurses, and also cover for them when there is a need, she should take a few days to learn what they do. How can she oversee their work if she doesn't even know how to do it? Anyway, the new boss listened to me, and I hope she gives me at least two more days to train the new person. Her name is Ellen, and I am going to begin praying for her; that the Lord will help me know how to squeeze all that training into three short days.
I would like those of you who read this to please say a prayer for me and Christina. I don't want anything except God's will to be done, but my prayer is that I will have wisdom and know the right thing to say to Christina; no matter what the school decides. If they let her graduate, I still need to be tough with her about attending school for the rest of this year. If they don't let her graduate, I want to show "tough love", in the kindest way possible, and to be able to help her tell her dad the bad news.
I am ready for whatever they have to say. I hope Christina is.
God bless you all!
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/10/2005 6:27:44 AM
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Well, they told Christina she will graduate.  I have mixed feelings, as I would have about either decision. I suppose she made a good case for herself, in that she HAS maintained good grades and made up all work she lost, when she was absent so often.
But I guess I see this from the perspective of being a "Rules Girl". I am a person who always wants to do things by "the rules" (whatever they may be) and to hold others accountable for obeying those rules. Christina DID have some physical symptoms, but to be honest I think she overplayed them, and then she took other days to do things for her own pleasure, like going to Canada to meet "French Fry. " So, there is a part of me that says she doesn't deserve to graduate.
In the end, though, this will make life easier for us. She will have a summer at the camp she loves, and then begin college on August 25. I have to pray, and Ed and I will talk to her; about the apartment. I just wonder if we should make this financial committment to her.
AND, I wanted to say YAY because my beloved Ed is on his way here, to NJ!!! He will get here about 4pm, Lord willing. He hasn't been able to drive here; since February. We are going to spend a nice, relaxing weekend together, and on Sunday we are driving out to the Poconos area to attend a friend's wedding. I am really looking forward to it. It will be Kyi's birthday on Sunday, and we will take him out for pizza tomorrow night. Chrisitna will be gone most of the weekend, as she is going to a Prom from another school. The boy is a friend; whose date dropped him at the last minute, and he really wants to go. He is a nice Christian guy, and I suppose I wish she were dating him instead of French Fry. But she says she feels like Garrett is a brother, to her.
I am concerned about Ed. When he was sick, he would have many days when all he could do was sleep. Now, even though he is better and able to work, I see that he still has those days, and that he is tired so much more easily. It concerns me both for his health, and for our ability to have time together. Maybe one of the reasons that the Lord had us live apart, for this year, is because He knew that Ed and I won't be able to spend much time together; even when we live together, because of his need to sleep/rest. Well, if that's what my beloved husband needs to do, I will help him do it! I will keep the house clean, and make sure he has healthy food. I will do my best to keep the house quiet when he needs rest, and we will plan family activities which don't tax his strength.
I can see the time going so quickly! Christina is almost completely packed, and I have a bunch of boxes in my own room; waiting for the next few weekends, to fill them.
God knows when I will find the time or energy, but it must be done, and it means I will soon be with my "Papa Bear".
God bless you all... I have been very tired myself, lately. Maybe it is the weather.
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/11/2005 7:44:00 AM
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My apartment is now full of boxes, (for packing) and Ed is here. He and Kyi are watching cartoons, and I am next to him online. I feel so contented... he got here yesterday evening and it was as if he had never been away. I was so glad to see him, and so glad to be next to him last night.
Christina's "friend"-date came last evening, and took her to the Prom. They looked so nice together. I can't help wishing she could find a boy like that, but I know I cannot control her feelings, and forcing her on someone (or away from someone) would not work. She stayed at a friend's house last night, after the Prom. I will pick her up after lunch, at their house (they love to barbecue!) and then tonight we are all going to take Kyi for his birthday dinner. Tomorrow is his birthday, but since we are going to the wedding tomorrow we want to be sure we don't "forget" him.
For his birthday I bought him a butterfly kit; where you send away and get caterpillars which will change into Painted Lady butterflies. He has shown alot of interest in them since he studied them in school. Ed got him a book, from the Museum of Art, where he can learn to copy famous works of art (he LOVES to draw!). Christina, who has permission from her future landlord to get some turtles, is giving him her aquarium fish, when she moves.
And that is next week... already! It is already that "my baby" (because, she, not Kyi is really my own youngest child) will be going out on her own. The camp where she will be working, and living this summer is one where her older sister went, and where she went since she was 6 years old. So, I have been sending kids to that camp since 1982. And she has been familiar with it since she was a baby; being with me to bring her sister there is part of why she wanted to go, as a little girl. She will be the Arts & Crafts coach. I think this is a good job for her, and that she will enjoy it. I just pray with all my heart that she doesn't treat this job the way she treated her job at the nursing home... but as of next week, I will no longer be there to get her up each day and to make sure she is OK. It is the beginning of her "living on her own". Tomorrow Ed & I will talk to her one last time about responsibility in relation to her upcoming move to the apartment... he has a right to speak because he is signing his name to the lease, along with me.
Yesterday at work I got mad at one of the nurses there. She has been trying to get me to use a certain form, which I don't think we need to use. She wants this form so that she can do her own job more easily, and she talked the nurses in the other departments into using it. I have told her - and shown her - that, for the entire year I have been there, my nurses do not NEED this form to complete the charts. (She audits the charts, and that form helps her keep tabs on what we put in the charts) My nurses have been on time every month, and have almost always been accurate with the charts.
But this nurse thinks we "might leave something out"... .and we argue about it each month. Yesterday, she talked the new boss into seeing how beneficial it is (from that nurse's point of view, of course!) and so now the new boss wants it done. I already have enough trouble getting my nurses to comply with the paperwork they have (though they mostly, eventually do their paperwork... and I think they do a good job, for the most part!) so I resent her underhanded way of making us do this stupid form. So I need to pray for forgiveness for my bitter attitude toward her, and get over it. After all, I have
about 4 weeks left. I can do this!
I don't like this dumb cartoon that "my boys" are watching, but I think I am gonna go sit next to my handsome hubby, and enjoy being next to him.
God bless you all
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/12/2005 8:15:40 PM
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forgiven4ever
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Our weekend together flew by, and now it will be almost two weeks before I see him again. But, in just 4 weeks, we will be living together, and I can't wait!!
Yesterday, we didn't do much, except running around with a bunch of errands (I got a new cell phone, because I was dumb enough to drop mine in the toilet and I can't get out of my contract.) We took Kyi out for dinner, last night (because we knew we would be gone all day today) and I LOVED the look on his face  when the all waiters and waitresses came out of the kitchen to sing to him! (that was Ed's idea, of course!)
Todat we took a beautiful 2-hour drive to my friend's wedding. I didn't know her husband until today, but I really like him! She is in her 40s, and has had an "interesting" life, and alot of difficult times with her former marriage. So I was glad to see that the man she married seems very nice, and that they obviously are head-over-heels about each other! He seemed a bit young for her, at first (and I still don't know his age) but I was reminded by Ed that she is about 5 years younger than me, and he estimated the man's age much higher than I did.
They had an outdoor wedding. It was a beautiful country day, and the groom's sister has a lovely country log cabin house. What a great house!!! Ed said "that's my dream house!" and I had to agree. All 7 of the bride and groom's kids (5 of hers, and 2 of his) were standing up there with them. It was great! When the minister spoke the lines of the service, I couldn't help being transported back, just about a year ago (our anniversary is the 26th!) to our own wedding. Ed and I held hands through the ceremony, and we smiled at each other... I know he was remembering, too... .it was a great day for the newlyweds, but I was touched by it, too, from my own romantic side.
I'm home now, and Ed is back in Pennsylvania.  He told me, when I got home, that Ben got three silver medals in tennis from Special Olympics, and that Becky got a gold in softball. Ben was also chosen to train as a tennis official. I am proud of my kids!!!  But I do have all those boxes to fill, and lots of things to do between now and when I move. This week will fly, and then Christina will be gone... all too soon, but it IS time...I will see Ed on the 25th, for Christina's college orientation, and the next day will be our anniversary.
I know the days will pass quickly.
God bless you all!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/14/2005 9:03:05 PM
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Well, I am both happy and sad to say that Christina told me today that she broke up with Alexi. She seems very calm about it, but says she doesn't want to talk about it. She says it happened Sunday (when? we were at the wedding all day, where she was moody and distant, so maybe it happened early Sunday morning?) and that's all she will say.
I liked him, as a person... really... the only thing I had against him was that I really hope she will date guys who are Christians. The best thing about him was that Christina didn't change when she was with him... she was just herself. She said things that she would normally say; did things that she normally would do. It said alot for him; that she could be herself... that she didn't feel the need to change or pretend to be anything she wasn't.
So, I am sad that a nice person, who she truly seemed to care about, is out of her life. But I am relieved, because I was worried that she was getting so serious with a nonbeliever.
I pray that God will comfort her heart, and keep her close to Himself.
God bless you all!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/15/2005 8:40:28 PM
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I was thinking some more about Christina and Alexi, and I hope she will tell me about what happened to them. But I think it is too much of a coincidence; that it came right after she spent a day with a Christian boy, and then went to a Christian wedding. Maybe she thought to herself "What am I doing wasting my time with a guy like him; when what I really want is a guy like the man who is marrying Aunt Penny... or the guy who I went to the Prom with?"
I don't know.. she seems OK... we will see.
Today we got a BIG surprise at work. Our Director, (who is 76 years old!) is retiring. (that's not the surprise. She gave 6 months' notice) She has been working at the nursing home for over 30 years. I truly respect her ability to work after these many years. Her energy puts all of us to shame. They hired a woman, who has quite a bit of experience, to take her place. She started a few weeks ago, and has put alot of new ideas into practice. She seemed nice, though anyone with new ideas is always a bit difficult to deal with, at first.
Well, today, out of the blue, she quit!  She didn't come in yesterday, but we figured she was just sick. Today, after she didn't come in again, the administrator called and she said she wasn't coming back. The administrator said that she took a job closer to home, but we all wonder if something else happened... it is so weird!! I feel so badly for the Director... her plans are made, and she is set to leave, but she must feel as though she is abandoning the facility. And I also feel badly for all of the employees, who will really be lost without a Director. I hope they find one, soon. I am only staying another two weeks; after she leaves, so it doesn't effect me as much as it effects many others.
In our nurses' meeting today, our Director was talking about something that the nurses are supposed to do, and I am supposed to check up to be sure it is done. She told us today that she wants it a certain way, which is TOTALLY not what she told me a year ago. I have been asking people to do this for a year, and doing it myself for a year, in the way I KNOW she told me a year ago. This sort of thing has been happening alot lately; where she will tell me to do something, and get angry if I don't do it exactly the way she says, then a few days/weeks later, she will say - usually in front of others - "I never told you that. I told you ____". But I KNOW what she says, because I am a perfectionist and I make sure I know what is expected of me.  So... I think to myself... no matter what happens to that place, I am glad to be going. It is time. And thank God I didn't stay in NJ... because the pressure on me to become Director would REALLY hit the fan, now. And NO WAY do I want to do it, or be placed in a position where I would have to do it.
God bless you all!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/17/2005 7:17:54 AM
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today is Friday and I am GLAD! This week has been so tense, because of the situation with our director. But I did get good news yesterday, because they are going to allow me to have two full weeks to train my own replacement. This is what I had hoped for.
I need a relaxing weekend, but I don't think it will happen. First of all, I am on call this weekend which means I could be called into work at any time. Plus, my brother from North Carolina is coming to visit, and the house is a mess! He is coming with his two kids, who have recently graduated from high school down there, to have a "Cousins' Day Out" at 6 Flags Amusement Park, to celebrate the graduations of all three cousins. It should be fun, though I am still trying to figure out where they will all sleep.
I want to clean closets and to clean out the refrigerator, this weekend. ( I will have to do the fridge again when we move, but this will give me a head start) If I get that done, I have been wanting to go to the shore. Living in NJ has me spoiled for summer recreation, and I will miss the shore when I move to Pa. So I want to be sure I get there before we move.
This Sunday, Christina is going to the camp and moving her stuff in. She will stay there Sunday for an orientation, but she has decided to sleep here on school nights next week, since she is afraid if she is at the camp, she won't get up for school... and it is her last week of high school. After being given a reprieve by the committee, she doesn't want to blow it at the last minute! I think that is wise.
Tonight she is going to see some friends graduate, including the young man who took her to the Prom last week. She will also go out to dinner with him and his family, and I can't help but wish she might decide to form a deeper relationship with this young man. She has known him and liked him for years, but felt he was too much of a brother to date. But I do remember, the day before she broke up with Alexi, she told me "well, if anything ever happens to me and Alexi, I think I might consider dating Garrett." So, of course, I am hoping...... (can't help myself... I pray for her to date a nice, polite, kind and sweet Christian guy)
I am praying that I get through the day and that everything gets done
God bless you all!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/18/2005 7:17:35 AM
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My mom is back in the hospital, in North Carolina. It looks like her heart again (she has 2 artificial valves in her heart) and for now it is not thought to be very serious, but my brother has to stay down there. So... the Cousins outing is postponed. Christina was disappointed, but she understands. SO, I decided to take the opportunity that God has given us, for one last day together before camp, and take her and Kyi to the beach today. After Bible study, we are off ! (probably to Sandy Hook). I can clean another day. I PROMISE! 
I just prepared my Bible study and I am a bit sad, as it is the last time I will lead this Bible study. I have been doing it for about 3 years, and it has come to mean a lot to me. I really enjoy studying the Bible, and these women have become very dear to me. It is hard to give it up, especially as God hasn't yet sent a replacement for me as the leader of the study. I pray He sends her soon....
Just three more weeks of work and then I am done with that place. I have learned alot about rehab nursing , and about how to love people in Jesus' Name, and I have learned alot about myself. God has been doing a work in me about patience, and about seeing people through His eyes. I try to be a positive person and to love others for His sake, but I am recognizing that I often have an unkind attitude for people who don't measure up to my expectations. God is really dealing with me in these areas.
Next weekend is our anniversary already! I can't believe we have been married a year now! I'll tell you about our anniversary plans later this week. In the meantime,
God bless you all!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/19/2005 8:06:03 AM
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Last night, Christina told me she thinks she is "falling for" Garrett (the nice guy that took her to the Prom). I have been praying for her to find a young man like him, and I would truly be thrilled if her feelings for him turn out to be real. But, coming so close to the breakup with Alexi.... I just don't know how real it is. She said "Mom I am gonna make your day. I am falling for Garrett." I know she expected me to be thrilled. But I said "Garrett is exactly the kind of guy I have been hoping you would fall for - IF that is what you really want. But, please, be careful. DON'T hurt him. He is not a boy to play with or to hook up with just because you are hurting from whatever happened with Alexi. If you really like him, it will be a wonderful thing. But if you don't, then it's better not to start anything; rather than hurt a brother in the Lord."
She was shocked because she didn't expect this. But I know her, and I know she (like me) always feels better when she is in a relationship. But I don't want her in a relationship unless the feelings are real, and to risk her friendship with Garrett isn't worth a few weeks/months if it is just a "rebound fling".
So I left it at that, and I will give it to God. That's always best, anyway.
Today after church, and laundry I am going to an antique car show at the nursing home where I work. Kyi wants to see the cars. Then I will come home - just in time to see "my baby" Christina as she drives away for her summer job at camp. (She will be home tonite after the first orientation session, so that she can get up for school in the morning,) but it will still feel so weird, because all her clothes are in a duffel bag and most of her stuff is now packed for the move to Pennsylvania. I really feel wistful; that my little girl is almost grown up!
Nothing else. Ed has been working overtime every day this past week, and I am praying for his health. He does it to help with the bills that will be associated with moving, and I am glad for the help but I worry when he gets too tired. (Another thing to give to God) We are both looking forward to being together next weekend, for our anniversary.
God bless you all!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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RE: Mrs Ed's blog - 6/22/2005 7:17:44 AM
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Last evening, Kyi got picked on by some bullies. Ever since he stopped BEING a bully, it seems that the bullies in our apartment complex have picked on him unmercifully and now he says they jumped on his head and ribs. I can't see any injuries but I feel so badly for him. He told me another boy was there, (also getting hurt) and I will ask this other boy for details. If the other boy's story matches Kyi's I will begin by asking the apartment office if she knows where these bully boys live.
Please say a prayer for Kyi. He is OK but shook up. I will be very glad to move.
Christina will graduate tonight! I can barely believe it! I know I will cry when I see her walk up and get her diploma.
This weekend will be very nice. On Saturday, Ed and I will go with Christina to the college and attend an all-day orientation. I can't imagine what they will find to talk about all day. After that, we are going with the kids to church (Ed's daughters' church meets on Saturday nite) and then to a bed and breakfast, in town, that they had bought for us as a wedding present, but we hadn't yet used. It will be our anniversary celebration... we will be married for a whole year!!!!
On Sunday we have to drive Kyi to a place that is halfway between where we live and where his dad's parents live. This will take most of the day, and then I will have to go home Sunday evening. I will need lots of sleep that night because I am scheduled to work a double shift on Monday. I am going to be earning as much money as I can; with both kids gone. 
Please pray for a friend of mine. I have mentioned her before, and I just need to ask for prayer again because she is going through a difficult time. I have posted the details in the prayer forum.
God bless you all! We are so busy this week!!!!!! My rash has been bothering me again, and all the meds I am on are making me as wired as if I were drinking 10 cups of coffee each day!
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I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth! Psalm 34:1
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